Did they avoid communicating and expressing how they truly felt?
Were they able to be present or were they distracted?
There is no judgment, I am inviting you to observe!
So many of us put on a brave face and pretend that everything is ok, but you can only do this for a short time until the cracks start to show.
Did you know if you don’t allow yourself process your emotions they can start to accumulate.
They will start to show up as the physical symptoms in your body or the stressful relationships in your life.
5 years ago I got a bulge disc.
My mental health wasn’t great at the time. I was avoiding how I really felt about myself which was unloved.
I had chosen to ignore the signs, the shooting pain that travelled down my leg when I was driving.
I was really struggling to stay in the present moment. I look back now and I know I was there for myself, kids or husband.
I was in my own little bubble focusing on what I didn’t have rather feeling grateful what I did.
I had got myself into a bit of a hole. I was so stuck in my adoption story and I was unable to get out.
Until one day, I took one step and I went down. I was unable to walk the pain was excruciating.
This lasted for about 10 weeks.
I was bed bound for the first few weeks as too painful to walk.
I had to lay there with my thoughts and dig deep.
What was my body trying communicating with me?
The pain was simply trying to wake me up.
Wake me up to fully love and accept myself, regardless of being adoption, experiencing sexual trauma, the abortion and all of the experiences that I had created to validate I was unloveable.
This was never the truth.
I had chosen in this life to have these experiences, I had to wake up and remember the truth of who I was.
My birth mother was the vessel that brought me into this world and her soul loved me enough to create this experience.
I had to promise me to wake up and remember who I was and also who she was....
We are ALL pure divine love!
This is how I live my life now.
It takes awareness and understanding of self.
It takes courage and inner strength.
This is why having a mentor to support you whilst you are processing and integrating the healing process, and having someone to keep you accountable is an investment you can not put a price on, because you are worth it.
It has had one hell of a journey however because of this I am able to authentically say to you, you can heal, because I have.
It’s an evolving journey, I am growing and evolving every day. As I heal I heal generations before me and after me.... I love this concept.
My question to you:
Do you fully love and accept yourself and if not, why not??
Infinite love and gratitude
Deborah xx
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